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Why are you so nice?


Have you even been treated unequally? If yes then you can relate to what it feels when you can't stand up to someone. It is not only humiliating but wipes out your self esteem completely.

I feel the same when I can't stand up to you and feel burdened by your mammoth persona. Why you have to be so nice to me? I really don't deserve it. I have always believed in equality of human potential. So I never felt smaller just because one drives a bigger car than me or takes home a fatter salary check. In totality my potential is as good as anyone else so if there is a difference its there in application. I always believed in fair competition so always treated my adversaries the same way they should be. I never thought they are of smaller stature and deserve my mercy or charity in any way so even if they loose out they will have their dignity. But when it comes to you I don't know why you have been treating me unfairly. When in response to my nasty behavior you maintain your calm I become restless. Its like living in a vacuum or playing a game where you don't know the rules. Its not only painful but outright cruel on your part. Please for god sake treat me equally. Hate me if you want to or outright abuse me but don't give me back your love and affection. I don't know if I will be able to take this any longer.

Please don't change me from what I am now and I will be lost if you kill all my belief systems which i have created for so long...either you change me fully or just let me go.. ..
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Deepz said…
nicely presented..one should not loose his/her identity but at the same time..must be adaptable to the situation...

as per Matrix.."Change is the only constant thing in the world"

Keep blogging
5:24 PM
Viraj said…
"It is not only humiliating but wipes out your self esteem completely."

so true!
1:34 AM
test said…
hmm.. we remain the same unless we are not ourselves.. ur post made me become self critical.. keep up ur good work!!
4:48 AM
my inner world said…
on reading the title of the post i thought it is somethng else that you will be talking about but the post was quite different from wat i thought.

kept me thinking for long !!!

a very good post :)
2:00 AM
Matangi Mawley said…
tht s a really good post! :) i like this blog a lot..
keep writing..
6:39 AM
Pranay said…
i liked the whole idea.. but it would have been nice had u backed it up wid some context..
coz to an anonymous reader.. it all seems a bit abstract..
nevertheless.. quite nicely and deeply written.. lots of thought process would have gone into it.. m sure..
4:36 AM
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